I remember one dream i had when i was around 4 years old and its stuck in my memory forever. I was walking in a dull grey parking lot with my mother holding my hand.
The parking lot is the only thing for miles and its surrounded by short green grass. In the top right corner of this unusually small lot there is a slender but tall castle. By the front door which is there but blurred and not really visible to me, there is a clown standing and waving at me. There is also a clown hanging out of a window high up and waving at me. The clowns in this castle are all friendly and not scary looking. I remember walking through the castle and feels alot like a hospital but has a single bowling alley in the center. I just walk by the clown by the ball rack and he stares at me.
This i believ was my first " controlled dream" as i like to call it although i didnt know it at the time. I havent researched this online yet but im going to post this topic here first.
"Lucid Dreams" are dream in which you become at least somewhat aware of the fact that you are dreaming.
I used to have a repeating controlled dream in which i was all alone in my house and it was a rainy day. Im just in my house and im standing there. When i became aware of the fact that i was dreaming i had fun by running through my house in my dream knowing that i was dreaming. My house was completely the same in the dream down to detail. I didnt remember this dream until i started writing this either. I was four or five years old at this time. Lately i have been very depressed and have had a hard time sleeping but from that i have become increasingly better at being aware in my dreams and enjoying them to there full extent. It began one night when i was dreaming and i justed became aware of myself and I thought to myself if this is a dream i can do anything??? Well you can. I began to run and jump and fly through the air. In these dreams when i am aware i can feel the wind blowing on me and hear music. Now ive not become fully in control because the dream feels like a dream still but i remember it perfectly when i wake up. I've ran on all fours like a cheetah in these kind of dreams and on many occasions done wierd focusing of energy into my palms and fought people like in Anime shows.
So before i go to sleep i try to concentrate on something i want dream about and when you enter the hlaf asleep state you can open and and close yours eyes and see whats happening around you in the real world and close them to return to a dream.
Recently i was all stressed out and i wanting to get peacful and calm so i closed my eyes and completely concentrated on a single thing and tried to visualize it and when i start toi fall asleep i am still aware of my concentration so i move freely through an environment i create. I Made a small castle in my mind. It had Many windows and yellow light like at a setting sun was shooting through. I kept going innto rooms and up spiral staircases and then i opened my eyes and looked around my friends basement and closed them and went back to the castle. It gave a full centered,blissful,Peaceful feeling. It was the first time i felt happy in a long time. Ive expiremented a few times with other stuff too. I have concentrated on a song and heard it in its entirety complete to detail. Ive even played the video game Jak 2 in my dream and i was actually controlling it. My friend asked me a strange question the other day. He asked me if i could play out songs in my head or if i can talk in my mind using his voice ... I thought about it for a minute....and tried it...and i could.... And he asked me if i knew how that worked. I responded that i didnt but it has stuck with me for a few weeks now.
I now believe that everthing ive ever heard or thought can be reached through my dreams and im going to slowly try to develop an ability to recall things through my dreams and take full control of my mind when im sleeping. Maybe that is what hypnosis is....so this is kinda like self-hypnosis.
I Know this is long and probably stupid to read but please i want know if any other people have tried this and if so..have you acheved a higher understanding of control over your dreams?