Apparently from what I hear from sources that this girl I like, DID have interest in me. I don't know if she still does. Lets get one thing straight from my post before. I don't care about the whole being JAP and only going after my people.
Last March she asked me to tutor her Japanese cause she wasn't getting it for her class. I go tutor her, then I really wanted to pursue her but I remember her telling me that she has no interests in me a few weeks before hand. Well 9 - 10 months later, I find out she really did have interest in me and she wanted me to pursue her that day. Apparently she was giving me all these so-called signals that I didn't really catch cause I'm a retard. How do I know that those things were signals if she was doing the same thing to other people?
After the tutoring I really wanted to say something to her. But I couldn't when we split, I felt like I still needed to say something so I ended up texting her saying that I still like her. Few days later while we were not working together she replies to my text saying she isn't looking for a relationship cause she pretty much lost faith in them. Then we talked online later and she said she doesn't care much about asian guys. Which kinda pissed me off. Around April was this Japanese festival and since I was really frustrated and felt awkward at work, I ended up texting her during the festival that 'I should be with my own people'. 8 months later I find out from my coworker that she was pissed off when she heard that. Strange that her signals of interest came occasionally during the time.
Around October or November of last year. She hella totally stopped talking to me and kept her distance away from me. Not like she really talked to me before.
I know I screw up but I'm sure she screwed up too, although the bigger screw up is on me. Strange that every time I see her she is the only things that's attractive to me. Her pheromone (scent) can't be any more attractive to me. I've gone to clubs, I tried talking to other girls, I even looked at other girls, but I can't seem to find anyone as attractive as this girl. I tried moving on but it just doesn't work.
We had about 4 other female co-workers during the year that was working there too and every dude at work found them to be more attractive than her. Except me. Yes we both be virgins but she says she's not a pure one whatever the hell that means, if someone here can explain that. Oh the great community here, tell me what I should do.